I've just been reading what I wrote last night when I was drunk and stressed because of what my parents had said. Most of what I wrote last is quite true and how I feel.
I have spent 2 hours of my Sunday night doing some work for tomorrow (getting to do some trials tomorrow). This has really got me down, made me think of what else I could be doing with my Sunday evening.
The main thing is that I need to always be positive. I am a nice guy and at some point in the future I will be spending my Sunday nights in front of the box with my girlfriend/wife etc. Just need to be positive and keep going. Getting some of the stuff I bought this weekend is a step forward. But real progress would be in losing weight and feeling good about my appearance.
Right off to bed. Head spinning after spending entire day thinking about F and sometimes C. I'm not going there though, unless she wants to. Is C better than being on my own??
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